Saturday, January 6, 2007: someone's watching over me (:
had study group lunch today, and i think it was a pretty good chance to catch up with one another, especially with mikey, cos he's never around in singapore. and so, the 5 (yes 5, cos james had swimming trg, and clem had soccer matches) had lunch and talke quite abit. about jc, about australia, about scandals, about anything. i'm thankful that we still keep in touch after so long! (: i expect that there's a rise and fall for every group of friends that we have. thankfully our fall, i feel, wasnt as steep.
was walking back with mikey, and we were talking about some friends of ours, and we were chatting away catching up with each other. i guess the whole talk brought back so many memories of my past. the friends i chose to make, the friendships i chose to keep. i guess along the way, alot of decisions i made were made out of rashness, some out of long contemplation. but i guess alot of the times in the past i never thought that much before jumping to conclusions, before jumping into making decisions. i never bothered to consider feelings, i never bothered to make sense of what would come. but i guess things happened and there's really nothing much i can do about it all, except hope and pray that a better time will come for all of us. at least there's still the confidence that we can hope for something better, and that God can and will provide us with the means to getting to that something better.
the stages of my life have shifted alot, and i as i thought about it just now i really wonder how i got to where i am today. i think its truly by God's grace that i still am saved today, that i still can stand up and say that i have eternal life because i chose to believe. looking back, i'm thankful for God's calling even after making so many wrong decisions, making so many mistakes, choosing the wrong path to follow. i'm thankful that God never gave up on building me up.
i remember in primary school i was very rebellious. i never liked doing work, i always played. i talked back, i believed strongly that my way was the right way. i liked to please my friends, i was proud. there were things i did that i wish i never did, because my life might have been very different if i didnt. alot of regrets i know, but looking back i feel very happy that God hasnt forsaken me, He has never left me alone. i know i've been saying that alot, but i think God has been slowly revealing that to me so that i can learn to trust Him more, so that i can surrender everything to Him. and yes, i think even though i still have more to learn and be reminded of, i think i can say that slowly, i feel that i can let God handle my life, learn to be at peace with myself.
this year, i'm embarking on a new journey: university, new friends, new subjects, projects, assignments, winter camp, OCFbs, glenna-jeannie-kristi bs, holidays on my own, learning, living, sharing, loving. i think life is going to be pretty exciting, new prospects, big changes. but i believe God has something big instore for me this year. thank You God for giving me chances.
how timely itunes can be again! it played
friends in high places. (:
Well I was in need and I needed a friend
I was alone and I needed a hand
I was going down
But someone rescued me
My God cares too much to say
His mercies are new everyday
I get down to pray
And then help is on its wayI walk by faith and not by sight
If things go wrong, it'll be alright
'Cause someone greater
Is watching over me
Now in faith, I believe
I've got everything I need
I walk by faith and not by what I see
I've got friends in high places
I've got someone I can call
And I've got someone watching over meyes i've got someone watching over me (:
a shout of praise.
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